Tuesday, August 31, 2010


Looking forward to Friday!! The weeks are slammed full. We literally run from one thing to the next with very little down time in between. Tuesdays and Thursdays we go to donate plasma at 6:00am then I drop hubby off at work and head to school. Get out of school and pick hubby off at work. He drops me off at work and goes to school and then he picks me back up from work when I get off around ten. Busy Busy. I at least get Saturday mornings off and Sundays and Mondays off. And this Monday I am OFF ALL DAY!!! Thank you Jesus for Labor Day and for Monday's being my off days!! Woot Woot!!!

So even though it is just Tuesday I am ready for Friday to be done and over with!! But at the same time I had a really good time at school and work today and I am so thankful for all of this. School, work, being able to donate plasma for extra money and to help people. Just so many things to be thankful for and so many blessings!

Well that's all for now it is WAY past my bedtime!!! Night night world.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Weekend Review:

We were ready ready ready for the weekend...

Friday night:
*we both worked until 10
*went home and changed
*went to eat at Ziggy's
*home to veg

*slept in until 10
*hubby worked 11-3
*I vegged some, cleaned some, & got ready for work
*Hubby picked me up and took me to work
*I worked 4-10
*Hubby worked 5-10
*then we came home and I did a bit of studying before bed

*We ended up oversleeping and missed church
*We relaxed a bit and I did more psychology
*We headed to the library to get some things done and study study study
*Hubby had to go into work :(
*I Spent a wonderful evening with my new friend Holly getting to know each other and eating yummy spaghetti
*Hubby went to library to finish homework
*We relaxed and I studied some more

That is our weekend review.

Looking forward to a great week ahead. Busy Busy Busy Busy. Lots to do!!

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

So can't believe I'm admitting to this...

Apparently I really AM a Fainter.

The first episode happened while running in April in the early AM. I passed out cold and continued to pass out over and over. Hubby took me to the hospital and all my tests came back normal so the next day I went to the cardiologist who told me I am a Fainter. WHAT??? NO MA'AM I SURE AM NOT. THAT IS RIDICULOUS.

Since then I have continued to believe it is RIDICULOUS and even after admitting it is true I still fell like it is Ridiculous.

This is how the cardiologist explained it...
When an episode is triggered all the blood flows out of my heart and into my "gut". Which of course causes me to pass out. When I lay down the blood slowly is able to return to my heart. But if I stand up right away the same thing will happen again. When I feel this happening I am to lay down and squeeze my butt cheeks, which accelerates the blood returning to my heart.

I do not know what the trigger was the first time it happened in April (there might have been one time before that in Khols over two years ago where I collapsed to the floor so that may have technically been the first episode...ugh...ridiculous!!) but I do know the trigger of my latest episode.

Donating Plasma and then doing anything other than simply walking. I mean just coming up the stairs to my apartment warrants some time resting.

So on to what happened today...It was quite a busy day...let me give you the complete run down.

Class at 7:30, 8:30, 9:30 all in the same classroom but with two different professors. Chapel at 10:30. Then I leave school and head home for less than an hour before heading to pick up my hubby from work. Bring him home and while he is taking a super quick shower I make him a sandwich. We then rush out the door and I drop him off at his class and head to donate plasma.

Donating plasma has been a wonderful way to give back to the community and make a little extra money as well. Donating was very unpleasant today. I had not drank enough water so it was a bit painful and VERY VERY SLOW. If you drink a lot of water it makes the whole process run much much smoother and faster.

So when I finally finished donating I had only about 40 minutes before I needed to clock in at work. I headed to McDonald's to grab a large water and sandwich to replenish myself after donating and had a few minutes to chill in the car before heading into work.

I was at work about 35 minutes and was working diligently on the boys denim wall at Old Navy, I had taken about two trips up the ladder with a couple stacks of denim when I started to feel funny. I sat down on the ladder to rest and regroup and this is what went down...

I immediately began to pour sweat and everything started going white. I quickly made my way to the bathroom knowing what I really needed was to lay down. I was not going to lay down in the bathroom but I was hoping sitting and putting water on my face would help. It did not. I ended up collapsing in the bathroom, but I did not pass out. I knew I needed to lay back and let the blood pump back up to my heart. I knew I had to get out of the bathroom and find somewhere to lay down for a bit. Thankfully the bathrooms are right at the fitting rooms so I picked a fitting room and closed the door and laid down.

I did begin to feel better and thought that maybe if I did not do anything else strenuous I would be alright. So I got up and went back tot he back room and got some water and then went back to the denim wall. I no more than got back to the denim wall than I felt like I was going down again. I made my way quickly back to the fitting room again as I did not want to pass out in the store or in front of anyone. I laid back down and realized I would not be able to stay at work.

I the began to realized the timing and process of what was happening...I can't stand up for more than 10 minutes before I begin to feel "woozy" from that point I have about 5 minutes before I collapse. Realizing this helps me to be able to keep from making a scene.

So after laying down for a bit I quickly made my way to the back room hoping to find a manager. No one was there so I grabbed my phone out of my locker and sent a text to my hubby telling him what was happening and to come get me. I knew then I had a few minutes to find the manager let them know what was happening and lay back down before collapsing. Once I found my manager at the front of the store and relayed what was happening in short version...as in I don't feel good feeling sort of faint...she said I needed to clock out before going back to the fitting room to lay back down. That was cutting my time short so I hurried back to the back room and clocked out near tears knowing we need those hours and grabbed my purse from my locker. Made my way back to the fitting room to lay back down. Got there just in time before I collapsed again.

Hubby arrived and we made quick work of walking me to the car. I almost collapsed right at the car. And because the car seat doesn't lean all the way back by the time we got home I felt faint again so getting me up the stairs was mostly my hubby holding me up by my belt loops. I sat down immediately while he unlocked the door and I felt miserable. I then laid on the couch and did not move for several hours and now am able to sit up and stand again. I have a headache and am very very tired from the episode but over all am much better.

I still feel like this is the most ridiculous thing EVER!! But at least I know the triggers and timing and I can manage it until we get good insurance again and can get this taken care of. I will probably have to take some sort of medication.

So I guess I now have to officially admit that I am a fainter...UGH...I CANNOT TELL YOU HOW MUCH I HATE THIS AND HOW RIDICULOUS I THINK THIS IS!!!

I am so thankful for a hubby who rescues me when this happens and forces me to squeeze my butt cheeks and for a family that prays.

I know God will work out the missed hours!

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

A moment of Worship.

I will take hold of YOU.

There's no other name by which I am saved.

Capture me with grace.

I need You Jesus.

I will follow You.

I want to be captured by YOU Jesus. I want to live a life worthy of the calling that I have received.

Lord I'm Amazed by You.

How You love me.

In complete and utter Awe of You.

You sing all around...but I never hear a sound.

How wide.

How deep.

How great.

Is Your love for me.

So Faithful.

So Constant.

You see me.

You know my every move.

I know that You are For Me.

I know that you will NEVER forsake me in my weaknesses.

Thank You Father for a wonderful worshipful moment with You.

First Day of Bible College

Wow Wow Wow

I can't believe how amazing God is. I can't believe I just completed my first day of Bible College. It felt amazing to be in those classes ready to learn learn learn like it's my job!!!
It made me want to cry each time the teachers prayed. I loved being there and meeting new people. Met a new friend...Holly...we really connected. She's my age, lives off campus, works...I am really very excited!!! We have one class together and sat together in Chapel. I hope to see her again tomorrow.

I love my professors. Amazing. Loved their heart which was immediately evident. Loved their style so far.

I'm just so excited. I truly cannot believe I am here doing this.

Chapel was amazing. I cried at the incredibleness of God and just being there at Bible College. It truly is mind blowing!!!

I never thought I would be here, yet here I am. God is here and we are doing this together and it is amazing!!! I can't wait for tomorrow!

I wish I could have spent all day on campus!!! My brother sat with me in Chapel and bought me lunch afterward. He is such a good brother, forgoing time with his friends to be with me on my first day!!! Truly amazing and wonderful!!! Introduced me around and just was very awesome!

Well I am off now to make my sweet hubby lunch, pick him up from work, get him to class & me to work!

I am truly excited for both of us. On this journey together, loving our God, each other, and chasing our dreams, which will be come realities sooner than we can imagine.

I want to soak all of this up, everything. The wind, the knowledge, this time in our lives.



Monday, August 23, 2010

I want...

To love Jesus more and be more like Him

This week to be very awesome

To get all God has for me

My Hubby's Softball team to win tonight


To minister to those around me

To be pain free

To have more Faith and allow my feelings to lie to me less

To see my family and friends again

To be the best me I can be

To do very well in school

To not worry so much

To not get my feelings hurt so much

To be the Best Wife possible

To go deeper

For those around me to know how much I love and care about them

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Weekend Review

Let's see if I can recall the weekend...

Friday I completed my registration for school my shift at work was cancelled and Mr. Wonderful had to work. I had a girly night at home. Internet, chocolate, and "My Sister's Keeper".

Saturday we were able to sleep in and relax a bit. I did some cleaning and then we did some CVS shopping and then Mr. Wonderful headed off to play ultimate Frisbee with my brother and his college buddies. Then we both had to rush off to work.

Sunday we had a wonderful time worshiping the Lord, a yummy lunch at McAlisters and then headed over to see my brother's dorm room. Then we got to go to the dollar movies to see the new Karate Kid movie. It was cute. Then we headed home for naps and for me to put my fat lil feet up as they were very swollen. We decided to skip evening service as we were both tired and my feet were still quite fat. We spent the evening relaxing and getting prepared for the week ahead.

Classes start for Mr. Wonderful Monday and for me Tuesday. We are excited and ready to get started on this new chapter in our lives.

That was our weekend in a nutshell.

Father bless our week as we start school. You are our portion and our provider and we trust you. We are excited to get started on this journey you have us on. Thank you for all you are doing and all you will do in our lives. We love you and give ourselves to you. In Jesus name. Amen.

Saturday, August 21, 2010

Here I sit on a Saturday morning with peace surrounding me. Hubby is getting to sleep in and I am having time to reflect and think on God.

I'm so happy. So excited for what lies ahead as we both start back to school to fulfill the plan that God has for our lives. I look forward to learning and growing and experiencing new things. I look forward to soaking up all that God has for us in our time up here in Missouri.

I never thought this is where I would be or that this would be the course that my life would take. It has not been easy but I know that this is exactly where I am supposed to be. I know that God's will is so much more important than fears and plans that are not God's and than selfishness.

I've never been more excited about the future than I am right now. I can't believe how incredible God has made this life. From the moment I invited Him to be King of my life He has only done amazing things that still blow me away when I think about them. I am so blessed by all He has done and by all the people He has blessed me with. Family and Friends that truly enrich my life and bless me so much.

I can't help but be excited for all that is taking place and for all that lay ahead for us.

I can't wait.

Thank You Father. Thank You for all you have done, all you are doing, and all you are going to do in our lives. We belong to You and we give this life and this journey to YOU. Lead us and guide us. May we never veer off of YOUR path for our lives. In Jesus name. Amen.

Friday, August 20, 2010


We have internet at home now. I'm so very thankful!! This will make life much easier!!

We start college NEXT WEEK!! I can't believe the journey we are on. We are just so excited to get started. Can't believe it is finally here.

We love our new church and know that God is just completely taking care of us.

That's all for now. Hopefully Ill be posting more often. Making no commitments though will school about to start.