Silly Day Again.

ITS SILLY DAY!!! ITS SILLY DAY!!! ITS SILLY DAY!!! ITS SILLY DAY!!! ITS SILLY DAY!!!

Oh yes...It IS Silly Day!!


I have not been successful at being serious today so why not just deem it Silly Day!!


On Silly Day you get to be as silly as you want ALL Day.

Or for those of you who are not a five year old trapped in a twenty-seven year old's body like me the challenge is to be silly at least once today!!



So far today...

* I have made shadow animals in the projector light in a company meeting

* Laughed uncontrollably in that same meeting

* Shared my favorite laffy taffy joke...I just dont get why others don't think its as funny as I do...sheesh(yes I am about to share it with you)

What do you call a cow with a twitch?...........

BEEF JERKY

(oh yes I am laughing uncontrollably again!!!)

* Pretended my notebook was a catalog of my handwriting and displayed it for all of the other customer service girls to see (this after our boss asked if we had our catalogs, which we were all supposed to bring and noone did -- I didn't lie I just made my notebook into A catalog -- okay some of the ladies did think it was funny -- maybe even the boss)

* Danced like an idiot in the hallway for several to witness

* Laughed some more



Let the silliness continue. It is Friday and the Fall weather is so refreshing. And I am feeling better about myself than I have in two weeks. Junior Bible Quiz starts tomorrow. My family is coming over for dinner tonight...CHILI...yes I have FALL FEVER!!!

Ok so I was Goggling silly day to get some images for this post when I totaly just found this...And yes Silliness is absolutely a Ministry!!!!

Remember too that This is the Day the Lord has made...Let's rejoice and be glad in it...we all have something to be thankful for even in the midst of storms and battles and struggles...let's find something to rejoice over today and invite a bit of silliness and joy into our day...ITS SILLY DAY!!! ITS SILLY DAY!!!

God is good all the time and At all times!

Hope Restored.

Oh you guys...God is so Good!!

He restored my Hope last night! The wonderful thing about God is you cannot be in His presence and come out unchanged!! Praise You Jesus!! I am ready for more of God's presence just so I can bring Him glory in all I do. Oh Precious Jesus you are my Hope and my Salvation, the One whom I can always run to. Oh how good you are!!

God is good all the time and at all times.

Grumpy.

I don't know why I am so Grumpy but that's me today. Grumpy. Mean. Downright Irritable.

Ggggrrrrrr.

Father help me today!

You could get rich off me today this way. Gggrrrr. Well not so much, I don't have the $10.00 to pay you. Ha!

So my goal today is to be quiet as much as possible. And get less grumpy of course!

Father, take me today and take this whole day. It is yours. I love you. In Jesus name. Amen.

So Much.

Lately there has just been so much going on in me.
I am in another large struggle.
I am feeling down alot, so I apologize in advance for all the gloom here.
This too will pass.

I am struggling in all areas in my life right now. It is simply because I am struggling with me.
I am clinging to the Lord with all my might. I am trying to saturate myself in His Word and His Presence as much as I can. Honestly it is hard because I feel so unmotivated anyway. But I am making time to read the Word and just be in the Father's presence.

There are some things that I just do not understand. How can you be so close to the Father and certain things still be a part of you? I am confused, scared, so disappointed & heart broken.

Anyway that's where I am. It's not all Doom & Gloom.

I know feelings lie, so therefore I know this is not hopeless, even when it feels that way. I know that God is faithful and will see me through this, even when I just can't see how things will get better or how things will change. I know my enemy is a liar and he wants to get me down and keep me down. I know my God has already defeated my enemy and that he has no power over me and that he WILL NOT WIN. I know that my life belong's to my Heavenly Father and I will do what it takes to be victorious and God will get the Glory for it!!

Romans 8:28 "And we know that in ALL things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to hs purpose."

I certainly LOVE my Lord and seek His will. I surrender my life and all of this struggle to HIM! I know I am called and He will work all this out for the Good and He will use this to touch many. I am His. I want simplicity, truth, and to be who He created me to be in EVERY way.

Father, today I surrender this all to you. All of my feelings, thoughts, struggles, fears & anxieties. I surrender completely to You. Have YOUR way in me oh Lord. Help me to see things and myself as you do, help me to see truth. Be my shield, my refuge and my fortress today. I choose to believe you and let go of the fears and lies my enemy is heaping on me. I love you Father God with all of my heart and I belong only to You. I will not be moved. I will not let the enemy win. Get thee behind me satan in the Mighty Name of JESUS. I belong to Jesus and I choose Jesus and I choose to fight and not give up. I choose to allow him to make me victorious. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Holding on for dear life.

Psalm 91:14-16 (The Message)
14-16 "If you'll hold on to me for dear life," says God, "I'll get you out of any trouble. I'll give you the best of care if you'll only get to know and trust me. Call me and I'll answer, be at your side in bad times; I'll rescue you, then throw you a party. I'll give you a long life, give you a long drink of salvation!"

This is where I am right now...holding on to God for dear life.

Weekend Review.

Under the weather. - I am ready to feel 100% again.
Planning. - I am addicted to it.
Cleaning & More Cleaning. - As a gift, Frantic but thankful it is done.
Praying. - Lord I need you.
Visiting. - Football, BBQ, Babies, & Future In-Laws.
Meeting. - New Beginnings SO EXCITING & fun!
Playing. - UNO!
Chatting. - Future!
Praying. - Father Help Me.
Cheering. - WAR EAGLE!
Eating. - BBQ, Taco Soup, Waffels, Bacon, ICE CREAM
Praising. - My Heavenly Father!
Listening. - New Christmas Play!
Working. - On Human Video.
Practicing. - Human Video!
Sleeping. - Good worn out completely still under the weather kind of sleep.

Nine Eleven. A day late.

I wrote this in 2006 - but thought I would share it a day late on yet another anniversary of Nine Eleven.

Remembering Nine Eleven

REMEMBERING NINE ELEVEN
ON THIS FIVE YEAR ANNIVERSARY
OF THE DAY WE STOOD IN FEAR
WE NEED NOT BE REMINDED
TODAY REMEMBER DEAR
WHEN THE WORDS NINE ELEVEN
ARE HEARD SAID ALOUD
OUR MIND IMMEDIATELY RETURNS
AND SEES THE DUSTY CROWD
FOR THIS GENERATION HAS NO OTHER
SUCH AS THIS TO RECALL
THIS ONE DAY IS THE MEMEORY
THAT STANDS ABOVE THEM ALL
WE WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER
EXACTLY WHERE WE WERE
THE VERY FIRST FEELING
THE MOMENT THAT WE HEARD
THE IMAGES ARE SEARD
UPON OUR HEARTS AND MINDS
NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN
THIS DAY IN HISTORYS TIME
ITS IS NOT REQUIRED TO BE ASK
DO YOU REMEMBER WHERE YOU WERE
WE AUTOMATICALLY RECALL
WITHOUT SAYING A WORD

On September 11, 2001...
I was at work when the realization of what happened hit...I cried and prayed all day for those who were there that day...God continue to strengthen this country and its leader...continue to give wisdom and protection to this country and its leaders...we need you Lord...9-11 reminded us how much we need YOU...I love you Father...In Jesus name...Amen.

I.

Here's a little fun evaluation about yourself that I found. Feel free to pass on if you wish...
I
I AM…needing some Jesus time!
I WANT…health.
I HAVE…the most incredible Heavenly Father.
I KEEP…thinking of my sweetie.
I WISH I COULD…fast forward a little.
I HATE…that there is strife right now.
I FEAR…some things that I just need to give over to Jesus.
I HEAR…office noises.
I DON’T THINK…I can save any money.
I REGRET…something I did.
I LOVE…My Jesus, My sweetie, My family, My friends, My church, & Ministry.
I AM NOT…perfect. I hate that.
I DANCE…like a goofball because it is fun.
I SING…for my Lord. I love it.
I NEVER…give up.
I RARELY…manage money well.
I CRY WHEN...not when. I cry ALL THE TIME. Sheesh.
I WATCH…a lot of reality TV.
I AM NOT ALWAYS…thoughtful like I should be.
I HATE THAT…I forget things like it do.
I’M CONFUSED ABOUT…some stuff, but I am giving it to God to figure out.
I NEED…My Jesus EVERYDAY.
I SHOULD…totally be working.
I HOPE...for complete change in a specific area.

I belong to HIM.

My heart is HEAVY.

But I am standing on the Word of God today. In the words of my favorite song "On Christ the Solid Rock I stand, All other ground is sinking sand."

Psalm 100:3 "Know that the Lord is God. He made us, and we belong to him; we are his people, the sheep he tends."

Lord you are Good and I love you and I belong to you. In Jesus name. Amen.

For Today...

Outside my window...I do not have a window in my office

I am thinking...I really need to go get in bed, I feel so bad, I am done.

In the office...there is far too much noise

I am thankful for...a Heavenly Father that love so completely and for my sweetie

From the kitchen...I do not want food…Buffalo Wild Wings has ruined my day

I am wearing...Black pants and a black and tan shirt.

I am reading...Orders and Blogs

I am hoping...to get a nap and a quick shower before church tonight

I am creating...a bit of a whiny attitude

I am hearing...the girls say how bad Buffalo Wild Wings was for them today too

Around the house...there are lots of things that need to be done

One of my favorite things...my journal

A few plans for the rest of the week...Tonight Youth, Thurs. Relax at home alone, Friday work on Counseling paperwork with Neesie, Saturday meeting on Counseling stuff for Neesie, then to the lake, Sat night hanging with my sweetie, Sunday Church & All day drama practice

Oh Life.

Oh Life. Oh Life.
You are Wonderful and Stressful and full of demands. May I be able to catch up and catch my breath soon.
Oh Life. Oh Life.
You never stop, so neither shall I.

Greater is HE that is in me.

What an INCREDIBLE Heavenly Father we have. Oh wow!! Having a relationship and I mean an active daily relationship with Jesus is absolutely THE best thing that has EVER happened to me.

Nope.

I wish I were a little kid sometimes and could simply look at the world and say this four letter word...NOPE.

Well unfortunately I am an adult...and I do not get that opportunity. Isn't it amazing how life can spin right out of control in the matter of a single breath.

Big Sigh here.

I feel slightly overwhelmed and it's only beginning. I have so much to take care of. And the one thing that I want and need most to make a priority slips through the cracks more than it should. I am an idiot in this area, I know better.

On a much brighter side...I have a good God and He will never leave me or forsake me...and He will never give me more than I can bear. Thank You Jesus.

Once again I give you my issues. I give them up to you completely. I let them go. I let you take care of it. I trust you, I trust the YOU in me. You will make it right, get me through, show me the way. I trust I trust I give I give. I receive I receive I receive I receive. In Jesus Name.

ggrrr.

I stink at life.

Random thoughts.

Swinging makes me giggle like a little girl

I am in love

I have the most incredible family ever

I love to hear my Heavenly Father speak to me

Pictures are my favorite

One of my goals is to declutter my house

My pretty pink cell phone died

Christmas is less that four months away

When I am weak HE is strong

War Eagle

Autumn is my favorite

I fell in love with a flat nosed cat last night

Jesus is the most wonderful person in my life

I have been dating now for 3 months

I am sleepy

My day started off perfectly

I had three great lunches this week

Jesus is my life for the rest of my life

There are ovr 500 promises in the bible and not one of them says things will be easy

My brother is an awesome speaker

The weekend is almost here

Pic from last weekend...

Balance.

Balance.

The Story of my life.

Father help me to do it well, help me to hear you and see your way and be obediant. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

Learnings & Opportunities.

Rundown:

Last night my plans were to go and hang out with my beautiful mommy-to-be friend and be totally girly and then go help out my beautiful Bride-to-be friend with last minute Wedding things.

I have just enough time to get home and change into something much more comfortable(uuggghh heels - I will never walk well in them and they will never be comfortable). I get home change and am headed out the door and Hallie(my car) will not start.

*Frustration is conceived.

I pop the hood and trunk...grab my trusty miniature Louiville Slugger from the trunk to begin venting my mounting frustration on the battery connectors...that always works right...NOT SO MUCH.

*Frustration rising.

I call Mr. Wonderful who thankfuly lives right around the corner(I AM on a time schedule here, I have a plan and must stick to the plan and a non-starting car was not in the plan - I am to meet my preggo friend who needs her beauty rest so needs to be in bed early and my time is running out - my plan is slipping - THIS IS NOT COOL)so I call Mr. Wonderful who rushes over to look at Hallie - and diaganosis her with a dead battery.

*Frustration screaming upward.

I call my Dad cause I need a plan and my frustration has ripped my planning skills right out from under me - he suggests we take the car to the parts store and let them hook up a machine to confirm the diagnosis - and buy a new battery if needed.

*Frustration lowering(I have a plan - sometimes that's all it takes for me)

I call mommy-to-be and let her know - SADLY - I may not make it tonight - Sheesh It's only been months since I have seen her - TEAR SNIFF SNIFF - then Mr. Wonderful and I head to the parts store.

*Attitude sets in.(My plan has be ruined - I HATE THAT)

Now we all have had those times right before payday when you know the funds are not in the bank but you know you can PROBABLY write a check and be safe right. Well Not when the parts store runs your check for you new battery costing $98.98(because YES I did give a dollar to support research for Juvenile Diabetes and thought about Alan - I LOVE YOU ALAN and believe for your HEALING God IS Faithful) through like a debit and it gets DENIED.

*Attitude, Frustration, EMBARASSMENT set in hard.

Praise Jesus for a Dad who really is a good Dad and bails his favorite(only) daughter out with the trusty Credit Card over the phone. (Wiping brow here)

*Embarassment level falls and Grateful level RISES. Attitude still there STRONG. Frustration better(once again a plan is in play).

On the road back home it is now after 7:00 and I am wrestling with what my new plan should be. My attitude is so bad I simply want to go home and go to bed. And I have gone back and forth out loud. Mr. Wonderful sweetly kisses the top of my hand. (Why are you loving me when I am being so difficult, indecisive, and so darn Unlovable?????)

*Guilt Builds. (I'd rather at this point be in bed that be social with those I had plans with & I am being Ridiculous). Motivation GONE.

Neesie & Mr. Wonderful encourage me to go ahead with original plan. I call mommy-to-be she's game for a later but shorter visit. I decide to beat beat beat beat the attitude (Thanks for the further encouragement Neesie while your hands are elbow deep in chicken)...push through and go ahead with the origianl plan only later.

*Attitude Defeated!

I am so glad I went. I had the best time with mommy-to-be, we talked babies, weddings, Jesus, chruch, football, family. It was great. I got to see baby boy on video - I already love him. Made my heart flutter to watch him moving and showing off in mommy-to-be's belly.

I got to go and spend all night(10:30pm-2:30am) helping Bride-to-be with wedding stuff as she was completely overwhelmed. I was so blessed by that and I think she was too. SO AWESOME!! I loved hanging with Bride-to-be, whom I hadn't seen in years and be able to be there for her!!! AWESOME!!

Learnings:
Attitude tries to beat me when my plans fall through
I can beat Attitude
I don't think I should be loved when I have attitude like that
I love my Neesie, Mr. Wonderful & my old friends(we have history and I love that)
I know what I dont want the days before my wedding to be like

Opportunities:
Beating Attitude
Hanging with friends
Meeting baby boy
Blessing Bride-to-be

Sadly - NO pictures for any of this.

God is GOOD!!! I am not even that tired right now!!

Rolling River God

...and the waters keep rolling on...

Waters of life...ever changing...ever rolling on...

More change...good change...

It will be so cool to see what the rest of this year and this next year brings...

Exciting things are on the horizon...

...and the waters always keep rolling on...

Jump in the River...God's River...it's overflowing with blessings...jump in and roll on with it...

I am excited and humbled and I just can't wait to see how God moves!

Nichole Nordeman \ River God

Rolling River God Little Stones are smooth

Only once the water passes through

So I am a stone rough and grainy still

Trying to reconcile this river's chill

CHORUS:

But when I close my eyes and feel you rushing by

I know that time brings change and change takes time

And when the sunset comes my prayer would be just this one

that you might pick me up

and notice that I am just a little smoother in your hand
Sometimes raging wild

sometimes swollen high never have

I known this river dry

The deepest part of you

is where I want to stay

and feel the sharpest edges wash away

CHORUS

Scream.

So much swirling around in me today...

My enemy is trying to plague me with fear, self destructive thoughts, hopelessness...the list may be longer but that is all I can pinpoint at the moment.

My insides literally are in knots...

I need time with my Father...NOW...maybe a trip to my "special place" is necessary...

ARG! I hate this feeling...feeling like I am just messing EVERYTHING up...

Ok...headed down the wrong thinking path so I am going to spend a little time with my FATHER!!

I will never forget.

I will never forget this weekend.

Slack Attack was amazing: Pheonix Rising
It was the most incredible weekend ever. Everytime I think about it I cry from God's goodness.

I am BEYOND proud of the incredible girls in my group. Beyond in love with ministry. Beyond in love with Jesus. Beyond blessed and humbled to have been apart of something so wonderful. I am amazed at God's Heart.

I am so thankful and humbled to have gotten to love on these kids this weekend and share the things God has done in me so that these Beautiful ladies can know God's heart for them. What an honor. What a privilege.

Children's church:
I got to do registration, oh my gosh. I had the most fun. I loved it with all my heart. I got to greet the kids and see them first thing as they came into Children's church and hug them and smile at them and tell them how glad I was to see them. It was the best thing EVER!!!!!! I got to sit with my nephew during the action songs - he really does not do well with the loud music it scares him so much. I know it is becuase of his home life. But I was so glad I got to sit with him and hold him on my lap and reassure him that it was okay and tell him I love him and miss him. Man I love Children's Church and I am so honored to get to be in there with those precious kids ever Sunday and love them and show and teach them about how much they are loved by God!!! Wow!!

Then we had a great lunch with the family and the Jones' at Shogun. So yummy and I just love watching them cook in front of us. Too fun!!

Then Neesie and I finally got some time to go shopping together. Really one of the reasons God put us together was for shopping. Yep, it's true. We shop SO good together!! We got some Birthday shopping done and found some good sales!! Then of course a stop by Starbucks was a necessity on the way home even though I didn't get anything.

You know it was the best weekend EVER!!! I will never forget this weekend and all that God did and the ways He raised us from the ashes!!

Thank you Father!! Help me to be set apart today. I love you Lord. In Jesus name. Amen.

I did not do a very good job of getting pictures this weekend but here are three for you to enjoy...

My wonderful Group for the weekend...These are the most incredible girls EVER...I am so proud of them all!! I love you girls!!!My two favorite guys and me...Red Rover in the rain...compliments of Tropical Storm Fay...

Slack Attack Weekend.

This is Slack Attack Weekend. I cannot wait!

This is a weekend we do with the youth, a back to school event. It's a weekend of pouring into them and I am so excited. It starts tonight and I am pumped up and ready to go.

We have been reading a book called burn this book. This weekend we will burn the books and burn the impurities from our lives!!!

I have been praying that this weekend would be really deep and really spiritual and really fun. I love the small group sessions and really digging deep with the kids.

I am ready!! I am ready to have some junk burned from my life!!!

I am ready to love on these kids and for them to have some junk burned from their lives!!!

God is going to show up and I can't wait to see what He has in store!!! I am ready.

Father, this weekend belongs to you. I belong to you. I pray that you would burn impurities from my life. I ask that you would use me to love these students and minister to them this weekend. I pray that you would use all the adults and college students to minister to the youth this weekend. We are your willing vessels. I pray for good sportsmanship, and acceptance, and that all would be included this weekend. I pray that all the kids would be encouraged and uplifted and built up all weekend. I Thank You for what you are going to do this weekend. Lord I surrender to You, use me. I love you Father. Thank You for this opportunity to minister and love these students. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.