Good afternoon...well today is considerably better workwise than yesterday...I have managed to get my mind off having to have a reason for being here...I am simply here because that is where God has me at the moment...who am I to complain...is there not worse places I could be...uummm...yeah...not to mention...they are pretty good to me here...aside from the occasional bad day or someone being ugly or the fact that it is not ministry...this is a great job...and my bosses are wonderful...why am I complaing...really the only reason I was complaining is because it is not ministry...otherwise I dont have a problem being here...lol...anyway I am better today...even jovial...ha...do you like my word...I have been able to stand in faith so strong last night and today...and the situation that came about is a rough one...but I have so much faith and peace and calmness...it is still odd to me the calmness that comes upon me in times of crisis...but it is God and it is great when He floods me with that peace...and I am thankful for it and the faith that I have...I know God is going to reveal Himself in this situation...I know it without doubt...and I hope it all comes about quickly...I am look forward to watching Him work in lives...He really is an incredible God...He really is more than the human mind can fathom...His goodness towards us makes absolutely no sense to us...but the beauty of it is that it doesnt have to make sense...it just is...and the fact that we do not understand it doesnt change the fact that it there abundantly...that is pretty cool...cause if the world stopped because I didnt understand it then hey...this would be one still earth...lol...there are so many things that I do not understand...but I know that I do not have to understand them in order to have the faith that God has given me...otherwise I wouldnt have that faith right now...I know I know...I am not making much sense...these are just things that I am realizing as I am typing...anyway...I am thankful that the day has improved over yesterday...last night I even got out and walked about 8 laps on the track...and I am going to do that again tonight...I am gradually moving back up in to my bigger clothes...uuuggghhh...so not fun...so I am definately wanting to walk again as much as I can force myself to...I just want to not have a weight problem...but since that is not the case...I need to really be motivate to work hard on it...I need to really stay on top of the whole exercise thing...I havent gotten there yet...but maybe I will...well I had better go and run downstairs to get tickets...let my afternoon begin...bye for now!