So I feel stronger today than I have in a long time...it's because I have spent three nights deep in God's Word and in prayer for myself and others...it is so amazing what diving in can do...I have felt so weak, so lost, so tired, so aimless, lately...I hate it so much...I miss so much the place I was in with God...my rug was ripped out from under me or more likely I stepped off the edge of it...and I plumetted way way down...not a fun place to be...but last night while journaling and seeking I was refilled with His strength and some determination...I am thankful...very thankful...I need Him so much...so much...I just kept/keep seeking...kept/keep fighting...its all I know to do...I kept/keep repeating the things I know to be true no matter if I believed them at the time...it's all I could do...I knew I didnt want to stay where I was...I clawed my way back up...or rather I am clawing my way back up...Father help me...when I get tired lift me up...when I am weak make me strong...when I am disobediant, correct me...when I am lost in the dark, light my path and give me clarity...I love you with all my heart...and I do not want to live even one day without you...help me find my way back completely! Oh and War Eagle!!!