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Psalm 18:30-36

As for God, his way is perfect; mine is not
the word of the Lord is flawless.
He is a shield the only shield our significant others or friends or family cannot be what God is to us and it is unfair of us to expect that from them or to expect ourselves to be that for someone else
for all who take refuge in him.
For who is God besides the Lord? Good question, it only has one answer NOONE
It is God who arms me with strength again not me not me not me and not others
and makes my way perfect. There is only one who is perfect or can bring about perfection and again its not me or those close to me ONLY God
He makes my feet like the feet of a deer;
he enables me to stand on the heights. I might can get up there and stand a bit on my own but the climb would be excruciating and I would not stand long on my own before tumbling down to great pain and suffering
He trains my hands for battle; HE HE who has the plan, knows what's ahead, knows how I need to be trained
my arms can vend a bow of bronze.
You give me your shield of victory, and your right hand sustains me; you stoop down to make me great, We all want victory and to be great but ONLY God can bring that, we think we can get it or make it for ourselves but it is a smoke screen, not real.

Who am I? Why do I think I can get by without Him?
I am nothing without my Heavenly Father. With Him I can do all things, and my life is filled with Joy and Peace. why do I go days without listening to Him, Reading His Word, Being quiet in His presence, seeking Him? I feel different when I haven't been with my Lord. When I haven't sought His face and listened to His voice build me up. Why is it that I know that and still I go a week barely cracking open my bible or journal or sitting still long enough for Him to wrap me in His arms and send me soaring on His sweet words to me.

Father I love you, forgive me for not spending the time with you that I need to Daily. EVERYDAY. Forgive me for not starting my days out with You, submersed in YOU. I need you, I know I need you. It's not even that I forget. I just get lazy. Forgive me for allowing lazines to become my God. Oh Father forgive me forgive me forgive me. Help me to get into a routine that please You. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.