Thursday, August 03, 2006

I just want to BE victorious...

Well here I am swimming in and out of discouragement...for the past week or so I seem to dip down into to the pit of discouragement so easily...and truth of the matter is...I know I am at fault...but I also know that I can not dwell there...sometimes I just so feel like I am spinning my wheels and getting NOWHERE...I know that is probably not entirely true...but I want to see major changes in me...major break throughs...I want to BE victorious...and its not that I just want to skip all the work...its just I want to SEE something happening in me...I have been asking God to help me see myself as He does...and one thing I know is that I have backed away from the Word again...I plan to get back today...I let my lack of routine get me out of focus...and there are many things I need to get back into focus...the first and most important being my devotions...I need to be fed by the Living Word...EVERYDAY...God is encouraging me...but I am having a little bit of a tough time holding on to that encouragement...on the whole though...I WILL NOT GIVE UP...even though at times I get tired...there's not giving up...Thank you Jesus for never leaving my side...for always lifting me up and holding me tight...I love you with all of my heart, soul and being...continue your work in me Father...in Jesus name...Amen.

2 comments:

neesie said...

I waited on this to ask were you able to get back in the word? I actually think that you are victorious in many places big and little. I am proud of what you have accompolished. I think that you write these just for me and maybe a bit for you but you have myspace and do all your stuff on that. So you don't have to write here if you don't want to... I love you

Tabbie:) said...

I really don't write these just for you...you are my main reader and biggest fan...which is really amazing and wonderful to me...I write them when I have something deep bubbling to get out...I know I write them alot less frequently than I used to but I have a lot less time at work to think deep and reflect than I used to...I love to write my feelings and thoughts and stuff...I do it as much as I have the opportunity...I love that you are interested in them and comment on them...I love you and I am thankful for you and how you love and support me!!