Wednesday, October 25, 2006

In the process of growth...

Waiting...waiting...waiting...I know that when the wait is over I will be able to look back and be proud beyond words...I know right now that it is worth it...that I am worth it...I know that I am ok...I am okay in which ever direction God takes me...I know the places I will not compromise...I know the things I need to see...I know what I am waiting for...GODS WILL...I know that even though there are things I can not control and can not do anything with...I am ok...and God sees me...He knows me...He understands me...wow...God understands me and what I am feeling...I know that I have not and will not manipulate and control to make my wants happen...but I will stand and watch Gods plan happen...because He knows what I need better than anyone else especially me...waiting...waiting to move...waiting to jump...waiting to fall...waiting for my my magnamous moments...waiting so intensly I could jump out of my skin...waiting...letting go...letting go...letting go of my wants and anticipating His...letting go of my thoughts to see what He wills to happen...letting go of my guesses...letting go of my heart...letting go of my dreams...letting go...letting go and letting God...holding on...holding on...holding on to His promises...holding on to His truths...holding on to His hand...holding on to His will...holding on to the growth in me...holding on to my convictions...holding on to me...the real me...holding on with all my might...walking away...letting go...giving it up...holding it out in an open palm...releasing it all...to HIM...to...MY ONE AND ONLY...never giving up...never compromising...never giving in...waiting...letting go...holding on...here am I...in the process of growth and commitment...here am I...here am I...continuing on...in love with my ONE AND ONLY!

2 comments:

neesie said...

You have much to be proud of now. You have won many battles. It sounds like today that God showed you who you are and encouraged your stand. He is a good God. He does know, He does have a plan and a time for that plan. You are in his hand and He will never leave you nor forsake you. Finding the real you and holding on to that is an accompolishment that is a difficult task for most. Simply knowing the real you is a task many are not able to do. I am proud of you...In all that you do.
Love you

Tabbie:) said...

It is good to know me...to finally know me...and to be able to not compromise that for any desire...I would not be here without you!! I love you!!