William "Runt" Langston Verbena resident William "Runt" Langston, 51, of Verbena died Saturday, April 16, 2005, in a local hospital. He was born Oct. 14, 1953, in Chilton County.He is survived by his mother, Rosie "Peggy" Dotson; his children, Jeremy, Stacey, William, Glenn and Tabitha; his brother, Roger; his sisters, Betty, Bonnie and Kathy; nieces; nephews; aunts; uncles; and many friends. Service will be today, April 20 at 11 a.m. at Bolton-Letlow Chapel, the Rev. Joe presiding. Burial will follow at New Hope Cemetery in Jemison, Bolton-Letlow Funeral Home directing.
I am better today than yesterday and was better yesterday than the day before. You know seriously I never would have thought this would have affected me so much. I thought I had let go of him along time ago. But I learned that there was still a hope in me that my “dad” would want and love me one day. I mourn the family that never was, the hope my brothers and sisters and I lost, the condition of their lives and his life before he died. I have no peace about where he will spend his eternity. There was no fruit of salvation nor is their fruit of salvation in the rest of the family. I don’t feel like I lost a dad, I have my dad, but I did loose the hope. I met two sisters I didn’t know I had; they also didn’t have their dad love them. I spoke to the oldest Misty at the viewing Tuesday night, she is 32, she said “he knew where I lived, and how many kids I have, and he never came to see me”…I said he wasn’t a go getter, he never has been very involved in the lives of his children. Seeing him in the coffin was the first time she’d ever laid eyes on him. That broke my heart. She and my other sister were left out of the obituary and funeral, that broke my heart, but I was glad they were not there to know that. Tracey the other sister works down from my apt at the gas station and I have seen here countless times over the past several years and never knew she was my sister. She and my full brother Glenn got the short gene from Runt (my “dad”). They also look alike in the face. I sat down and cried for us all last night and prayed that they would come to know our Father in heaven. I prayed that nature would spark their interest in god!! I haven’t yet prayed for what I need to do as far as these new sisters are concerned as well as my other half brother and sister. I hope to get to that point soon. Maybe I am scared of what god will say he wants me to do. Because part of me doesn’t want any part of the family I have spent so much time separating from but part of me loves my sibling so much even though I don’t know them well. You know through out this entire thing most of my feelings have been conflicting and mixed up. It has been so much harder than I ever imagined it would be. I am exhausted and worn down, but I love my god and I am so very thankful for the places he has brought me from and the ways he has healed me and the forgiveness he brought before runt died! I have peace in the things I have done.
I am also so very thankful to my church family! God has put incredible people in my life to pray and love and support me. I am so thankful for you all! It means so very much to me to know people love me enough to pray, and keep me in their thoughts. It touches my heart so much there are no words to describe. I’ve gotten emails, e-cards, phone calls, cards, plants, and so much love and each and every one of those things has affirmed gods love deeper in me. There are just no words to say thank you to all who have supported me. No words. Just know that I am thankful for you and your love and support and definitely your prayers. I am thankful for you all! I love you all!