More Change...

So yesterday Hubby and I decided that I do not have to go back to work. Recently Hubby got a promotion at Old Nave which meant that I had to leave. I was happy to see my awesome Hubby excel and gladly left Old Navy with the expectation of getting another job in the mall at Justice. I even interviewed. But then we began the discussion about me not having to go back to work.

I began to get both excited and nervous. (Here's where I get really transparent). I was excited about the prospect of getting to be at home but I was more nervous about the taking care of the home part. The stipulations of me staying home were of course that I will be responsible for all of the household duties...dishes, laundry, cooking, etc., natrually. I have just never been consistent at keeping those things done and well. Hubby's mom kept a beautiful, pristine house and so I just feel nervous about being a failure at that. Nervous about possibly disappointing not only myself but my husband as well. To be honest I am still nervous about it.

However I have moved on to being thankful for the opportunity to work on it and try and get better and more consistent, especially now before we have children. (Which will not be anytime soon).

So...so far so good...I have the laundry caught up, the house cleaned, and several projects done (organizing our shoes in the closet, organizing the computer area).

We will see how this goes. I am hoping that we will not end up in a financial bind with a dirty house and laundry piled to the ceiling.

Wish me luck. And if you know of any seriously easy and yummy meals then send them my way please!!!

Moments

In life there are moments that you wish you could freze forever and go back to them and live them live over and over. I have several of those moments but would like to share only a few...

The moment when Hubby & I were just dating & we went south to visit his family & we went out to eat with his mom & stepdad at a mexican restaraunt & hubby & his mom belly laughed for a solid half hour because our waitress was ditzy.

The morning all our moms, lil Ronni, & I went to buy my wedding dress & I sat with my mama in law while she had her coffee and chatted.

Everytime she hugged me and told me she loved me.

The time she made fun of me and told me I was unAmerican because I didnt like watermelon.

The way she loved me unconditionally from the very moment hubby brought me home to meet them and loved me strong until the end.

The way she let me love her first born without hesitation.

I love you Mrs. Darlene so much and miss you so bad it hurts. My heart hurts so much for the loss this family is experiencing for the gaping hole that is here because you are gone & because nothing will ever be the same again.

I'll take care of your baby for you always & take care of lil Ronni as much as I can too. Love you.

Today we lost a truly amazing and precious part of our family.

My husbands mom passed away this morning. She had a long and hard fight against cancer!!

She beat it as today she is in Heaven with Jesus, cancer free!!!!

We will miss her until we see her again in heaven!!

Keep our family in your prayers!!

God is at work & moving in and through this!!! We can see Him & feel Him!! But there are some tough days ahead!!

Berfday…

Today is my hubby’s berfday & my heart is happy because today he is here at his mom’s side for his birthday.

My heart is thankful.

Yesterday I looked over to see them holding hands and it just filled my heart to the brim.

They are so much alike. She doesn’t like to be fussed over, she just needed him to sit by her and hold her hand. I know it made her day. Just to know and feel loved and that is all.

In all the loudness and chaos that was around at that moment there was quiet strength and love being transferred and that was all that mattered in that moment.
My heart is full and thankful.

I am thankful that my hubby got to wake up in his mama’s house on his birthday and sit next to her and take care of whatever she may need today.

I am thankful beyond words that this beautiful woman raised such a wonderful man that God chose to share with me.

I am thankful for all she has taught him and shown him and for all of the memories they share together. I am thankful that she loves him so much and tells him often. I am thankful for the strength she has shown and continues to show. It truly blows me away.

I am thankful that she took me into this family so readily and has loved me too. My heart is thankful.

Today I just want to let my heart be thankful for what we have and not focus so much on the petty things we may not have. This is what we have right here and right now and it is what matters at this moment. It is precious and priceless. We have time with her today.

God has blessed me so, with such an incredible husband that works hard, loves openly, and worships and seeks Him, one who is not afraid to follow God call no matter how hard or far away it is, one who loves me and cherishes me.

Thank YOU Father for blessing me so!
Thank you for this sweet man that you share with me.
Thank you for being with me everyday I waited for
The One YOU created for me to come along.
Thank you for your faithfulness always.
Thank you for what you teach us and for how you lead us
And for giving us strength to stand even in HARD times.
Thank YOU Father for so so so many blessings.
Thank You that my hubby gets time today with his precious mama.
Thank You that we know that we can trust you no matter what.
Thank you mostly for sending YOU own Son to die so that we can know trust and know YOU.
Life is precious. Help us not to take one single day for granted.
Thank you for our families far and near.
Thank you for your discipline and teaching and Word.
Thank you Father for so so many things.
In Jesus name, Amen.

Another chapter ends…another begins…

So today was my last day at Old Navy. A place I have spent just short of a year learning and building relationships.

I have learned that change makes me cry even when it is good change. I was weepy when I found out I was leaving and a lil weepy today as well.

I am leaving Old Navy for a great great reason!!! My wonderful Hubby who began working at Old Navy four months after me got a promotion!! I am so proud of him. He is such a great leader and Old Navy is very blessed to have him and we are blessed to have Old Navy as well!! Unfortunately because we are married and he is now a manager I had to leave as we could no longer work together. I truly am so proud of him and so excited to see him excel.

I believe this will also be such great experience for us to use in our future as pastors!!!

I will likely be moving to another store in the mall called Justice which I also think will be great experience in the world of tween girls for me!!

So as one chapter ends another will most certainly begin. We are excited to see what this next year will hold for us.

Excited!!

My precious lil sis-in-law is coming to visit us for a week!! We pick her up on Monday!! I cannot wait to have her here!!

She needs the break from taking care of her incredible mother and I have so much planned for our time with her!!

Monday: We pick her up in St. Louis from the airport. We will be exploring the city and taking in the zoo!

Tuesday: Pool Day!!! We will be sunbathing and splashing all day!!

Wednesday: We are taking her to Silver Dollar City in Branson!! Roller coasters and water rides galore!!

Thursday: Pool/Pamper/Picture day!! We will be doing at home mani’s & pedi’s and I want to do a photo shoot with her!! She is a beautiful girl!! I want pictures to hang!!

Friday: Shopping!!! We are going back to Branson for some outlet shopping and more girl time!!!

Saturday: She’ll get some down time while we work the morning and then we are all three going to a baseball game!!!

Sunday: We are all going to church and then driving to Mobile!!

We will be in Mobile until late Wednesday visiting Hubby’s family and while there we will be celebrating his birthday!! I am glad he gets to be with his mom on his birthday!! I think that will be wonderful for the both of them!

We are all looking forward to this time together and I am praying that it is beautiful, fun, deep, fun, and everything it needs to be for all of us!!

God has placed her in a special place in my heart since hearing the doctor’s report about the road we are on. She is on my heart and in my thoughts EVERYDAY. I can’t wait to have her here with us for a while and take care of her and have fun with her and talk with her and hold her.

Thankful beyond words to get this time with her and to get to love her through this. Humbled and thankful!