Crying Out

My Father I adore you more than anything my heart could wish for
I just want you...

This is true - but Father there are desires that I know you have placed in my heart - I feel them so strongly - at times I even lose myself in them - when I should be losing myself in You instead. Honestly, it's very hard not to. I have been fighting for years now, and I ask not to have to fight this any longer. I am asking You to fulfill Your promises to me. I am tired and it's hard to be patient and stay patient. Know that I will wait for You and for You to tell me when to move, but I am asking You to not make me wait anymore. Let this fight be over. I know there will be more and there will be other places to wait and fight. But I am asking You to bring this one to an end. But Father, You know best, so not my will but Yours be done. And in the meantime, help me, let it be easier for me. Give me what I need to be okay here. Content, peaceful, & patient. I thank You Father for who you are. I love you so much more than I ever thought I could love. Thank you for that. Thank you for loving me and knowing better than I what is best for me. Thank you for being in control of it all and that You have a plan for my life and it is a good plan. A plan to prosper me and not to harm me to give me a hope and a future. And I want that hope and that future to be in YOUR WILL and not mine. In Jesus precious name. Amen.