Back

I am back home.

A part of my heart is still in Thailand. With the children, with the missionaries, with the pastors, with the humble people of Thailand.

Words to describe the trip:

Humbling

Life Changing

Eye Opening

Heart Warming

I loved getting to be a part of the kids lives and teach them a bit of english and teach show them God's love. I feel honored to have gotten to be with them and get to know them and spend time with them. I feel humbled by their smiles and their gracious manner. They are so thankful for what they have and the smiles on their faces and the light in their eyes showed that.

I loved getting to teach the Children's Workers new techniques to teach children. I loved showing them our hearts for ministry and watching as the passion we brought over flowed onto them. I love watching them do the service and participate and do ministry for the Children. I felt like a proud parent. I couldn't believe how proud I was of them.

I feel humbled and honored to have gotten to worship with this humble people. To worship to music in another language but still feel God closer than ever. To watch God love on people on the other side of the world. To have God use me to speak into lives on the other side of the world. To see them jumping and dancing before their Lord, OUR Lord. To have been apart of their beautiful worship. To have learned there really is no language barrier in the Spirit of God. His Spirit speaks ALL languages and all who accept understand Him.

I feel honored to have been loved by those there. I feel honored to have been served as we were. I feel honored by the incredible missionaries and Thai team that made us feel so very welcome.

They are a beautiful people, a humble people, a respectful people.

I now feel like a rude American.

I am honored to have gotten to go and experience all that we were able to experience. Truly honored. TRULY HUMBLED.

I am thankful to be back, and have been blown away by the response of those I love so much. I knew I was missed and loved and that is the greatest feeling in the world.

You all were missed and loved as well. I missed you guys everyday. I wanted to share all that I was experiencing with you everyday.

I cherish the prayers that were going up to Our Lord. They were effective. God was there with us, we saw His hand all around. We had favor and protection and power. Thank you. I love you all!

Enjoy the pics below:

Our First meal in Thailand - Sea Side

Meeting the Kids at camp in Phang Nga

Beautiful Kids

Sweating for Jesus - Gorillas!!!

My incredible English Class - The sweetest teens ever!!

My precious precious little girl, my mini me!! Mham

Farong Team all Powered

Tsunami English Camp - Phang Nga Thailand

Sunday Morning Service - Din Daing

Beautiful Girls

Incredible Lunch - Incredible Service - Incredible Pastor - Din Diang

Getting to know the workers in Chaing Rai

Teaching Puppets

Teaching Object Lessons

Teaching Gorillas

Teaching Games

Set up for Service - Go Workers Go!!

Lilly - Called into Children's Ministry!!! Amazing Girl!! I felt such a kinship with her!

Chaing Rai Pastor and His family! Amazing Vision!! Amazing Pastor!! Amazing Family!!

Bridge over River Quai

Lunch at the Bridge over River Quai

Beautiful Lady

The Girls

Dee and I on the Elephant Ride!!!

Yeah our Elephant got us good!!

I got brave and rode on the neck!!

A moment of Exhaustion!!

A moment of Exhaustion!!

We had a great time and this is only a fraction of the pictures I have!! Hope you enjoyed!!

Tabbie Just Breathe

So do you ever have those times when you just have to remind yourself just to breathe...
This week is one of those...
Tabbie just breathe...

I can not believe I am packing to go to Thailand for two weeks. I can not believe I get to go there and embrace those precious children with God's love. I can not wait to wrap my arms around those babies and love them to pieces. I can not wait. I can not wait to find out what God is up to and what He has in store for this trip and my life. I can not believe I get to do this with my brother who is also called into Children's Ministry. He means the world to me and to get to do this together just blesses me beyond! This trip could not be more perfect!!

Father I know YOU opened this door. You have blessed me in this in more ways than one!!! This is incredible and I Thank YOU for it all!! I am absolutely in AWE of all that you are doing in my life!!! I know you have big things in store for me from start to finish on this trip. I can not wait to serve YOU!! Thank You Father for who you are in my life. Thank You that You know what is best for me and You have the perfect timing. Thank You Heavenly Father for amazing me everyday with who you are and how You LOVE me. You are so good to me.

Tabbie just breathe...

Father you are up to so much more...and I will not stand in Your way...I will be obediant to you...I will stand where you have asked me to stand...I now believe but I will be obediant...I can not wait to see how this unfolds...You are my driver Lord...and I will ride with You anywhere You take me...I trust You...I believe in You...I will follow You...I will be still and know that YOU are God...I will not move...You are my Father and I will listen to You and obey You...You have told me You are writing my story...You are the Author and Finisher...I have dropped the pen...I will not pick it back up...I LOVE YOU MY FATHER...MY HEART IS TO OBEY YOU AND TRUST YOU AND FOLLOW YOUR LEAD. Thank YOU for giving me everything I need to stand in the places You have called me to stand.

Tabbie just breathe...JUST BREATHE...just breathe...

Overwhelmed...

I am absolutely overwhelmed at all God is doing...
I have no words...
But I wanted to post something to let you all know I am still here, there is just so much that I have no words.
We leave for Thailand a week from this Sunday.
I am beyond ready to be on that plane and to see what God has in store there. I cannot wait.
I turn 27 tomorrow.

I am in awe of my Heavenly Father and what He is doing.

I am waiting and standing and trusting. I am being still!

Leave me comments you guys, come on now, I like to know yall are reading and I want to know what yall think.

PS - ONE OF MY WONDERFUL YOUTH GIRLS MAKE THE PICTURE AT THE TOP OF THE PAGE. HOW SWEET IS SHE!! THANKS KEETER!!

Yes HE does

None will ever be able to convince me that God does not care about the details of our life. He does. He has worked out EVERY little detail of this trip to Thailand, and ladies I mean EVERY little detail(ahem). The last little thing I was concerned about will be done and over with by the middle of next week.

God cares about EVERY little detail and He wants to take care of those details. He is a personal God who knows every hair on our head. He wants to be a part of EVERYTHING in our lives. So if you have something that you thing is too small or insignificant to bring before the Lord, hesitate NO LONGER, be assured that God cares about even that and bring it before Him in Faith that He wants to take care of it and CAN and WILL take care of it.

God is so good and He is working and moving. Allow Him to move in your life and you will be amazed at all He does.

Happy Thursday!!

Taste and see...

Psalm 34:8 Taste and see that the LORD is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.

All it takes is one taste...because the Lord IS good.

I am still in awe!!

God is not finished, not even close!!

I simply want to be obediant!

Overwhelmed...

I think I am simply overwhelmed at all God has done. I feel a bit out of body today. I most assuredly in AWE of God and how He works and how He has used me. I am excited but mostly right now just overwhelmed at the events that have taken place. I long for time in His presence alone just me and HIM to talk things out. I long for time in His Word to gain knowledge. Sigh. God is so good guys. He truly is amazing.
In case you are wondering what events I mean:
My friend got saved last night at church
I am going to Thailand

Nuff said. Love you guys. Keep praying. God is moving and wants to move more and do big and incredible things in your lives as well!! TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY. THANK YOU JESUS!!

The RAIN came.

How do you build a boat on dry land when you've never seen rain - By Faith
How do you get on a plane without a ticket - By Faith

When God asks you to stand in Faith...STAND.

I AM GOING TO THAILAND!

I have a plane ticket to Thailand
God said - You are going to Thailand
And God provided the ticket

I think I am still in AWE of how God has worked
But I wanted to let my readers know...
The rain came, and my boat was ready
I stood in Faith that God was going to work out my way to Thailand and HE did

God opened the door two weeks ago and EVERYTHING has fallen exactly in it's place
I have my tickets and my passport will be in my mailbox tomorrow
Two Weeks! God worked everything out in TWO WEEKS!

My Heavenly Father said:
I AM, I CAN, & I WILL
He IS, HE COULD, & HE DID
Hebrews 10:23 "Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful."
He said I am sending you to Thailand in May

Hebrews 11:1 "Now FAITH is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see."

Psalm 27:14 "Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord."

Isaiah 40:31 "But they who WAIT upong the Lord shall renew thier strength..."
*The word WAIT in Hebrew is 'qavah' and means "to bind together by twisting". While we WAIT on the Lord we are not just waiting on Him to do something, we are actually being intertwined, twisted with Him. We are being strengthened. Now read those verses again.*

My Faith has been increased! Thank you Father. Thank you!

A new respect for Noah.

Standing in faith.
Feeling like Noah.
How do you buid a boat on dry land when you've never seen rain.
How do you get on a plane without a ticket.
God is bigger.
If He says He will do it, He will do it.
Even if all the worldly signs are pointing in the other direction.
I will stand.

Father increase my faith, give me strength to stand no matter what others are saying or what the signs are poiting to.

I trust You Father.

In Jesus name. Amen.

Random Things

I really enjoy jotting down just random things about me and whatever random thing floats through my mind - so this will be one of those fun random list blogs - enjoy!

one of my very favorite things to do is give blood

i give blood every 8 weeks - unless i visit a malaria infected country

i'm going to thailand the first of may

i love black and white pictures

my face looks so much better when i am tan

i wear less make up in the summer

god has increased my faith greatly

i am looking forward to tonights episode of american idol - its idol gives back

i love to watch movies or tv shows that make me cry

i wont cry in front of just anybody

i love to worship

i love to do object lessons that teach kids about god

i can no longer say i have never been pied

my passport is completed and in the mail to me - thats so exciting

i love to see pictures of myself in happy moments - its a good reminder of how good God is and that i now have a safe and happy life in Him

i love childrens church

i love all my kids at church - i love spending time hanging out with them - they truly just pull at my heart strings

i have the most amazing Neesie ever - she is my best friend, my god mom, my biggest fan, my biggest supporter - & she puts up with me and still loves me anyway - she is well - absolutely amazing

i am standing in a new place with God

i can not wait to get to church tonight

i love journals

i love to color

i love to watch tv or movies

i love to sing at the top of my lungs when i am by myself

i love to minister to others - i love it with all of my heart

i will love you even if you hurt me greatly - that doesnt mean i will like you

i love to be greeted

i love when the kids run up and hug me

i love kids crusades and the teams that god puts together & hanging out together

i love getting pedicures with my neesie and eating at panera bread

i love to go to the lake when things are calm and peaceful

i love when god talks to me

i want my future husband to be one who worships without reserve

i love that my mom prayed for me to get to go to thailand

i love to write

i love my tater - he makes my heart smile

well i could go on and on cause it so fun for me - but ill stop now - enjoy my randomness or not so randomness

A new place to stand.

God has given me a new place to stand.
It's called Faith.
I am not sure I can find the words to relay all God is doing.
I know He is up to something and I CANNOT wait to see what He does.
I am so excited at all He is doing in me. There are scary things and scary places but that just means I am outside my box. I am okay with that. God has been bringing me outside my box alot lately and I trust Him. I truly want HIS will.
Any door God opens that He decides to close, I am okay with that.
He is God. He knows what is best. He has me. He loves me. He will NOT fail me. He is that all-knowing One.
My hand is out of the pot. I am watching Him stir. And I am excited about all He is stirring up.

I am just telling you right now. Watch. Just watch and see what He does.

I love you my Heavenly Father. I trust You. I desire You. I seek Your will and Yours alone.
I can not wait to see what you are up to. Thank you for all you are doing. Thank you for all you are doing in me. Thank you for who you are in my life and for bringing me to a new level with you. I love you Father. In Jesus might name I pray. Amen.

Watch..................

IMMEASURABLY MORE!

I am not sure if I could truly convey all that God is doing and has done lately without writing a novel so I will try to do it in list form to see if that helps:

1. The Spirit of God fell in our Children's Church service Easter Sunday morning and it was incredible. God spoke to the kids and just blessed us all so much!!

2. God has surprised me and blessed me with a paid trip to Thailand - I had no idea what He was up to or that He was up to anything really - I just thought it wasnt the trip for me to go on - but really God just wanted to bless me in a special way s0 - I AM GOING TO THAILAND!!! ON MY GOODNESS!!!!

3. Youth Convention was amazing - the speaker and worship leaders were incredibly annointed - The Spirit of God fell @ every service - God spoke into our youths lives and my life and our leaders lives - INCREDIBLE INCREDIBLE INCREDIBLE!!! God used me to speak into lives and it was amazing!

4. Family Day service was awesome yesterday - God used me to speak into lives and encourage and uplift. He is working!!

HE IS WORKING!!! HE WANTS TO WORK!!! We've got to allow Him to do what He wants to do even when it makes us vulnerable and we are scared to trust. We've got to be obediant and willing. GOD CAN DO ABOVE AND BEYOND WHAT WE CAN IMAGINE - EPHESIANS 3:20 "...HIM WHO IS ABLE TO DO IMMEASURABLY MORE THAN ALL WE ASK OR IMAGINE, ACCORDING TO HIS POWER THAT IS AT WORK WITHIN US..."

5 weird or unknown facts about yourself...

5 Weird Facts...
List 5 Weird or Unknown Facts about yourself.

1) Sometimes I get really low to my desk when I am writing
2) I eat the marshmallows from my Lucky Charms first - by color to get it over with - because I like the cereal better
3) I love the smell of Windex
4) I practice writing with my left hand because I want to be Ambidextrous
5) I do not hear well - especially if there are many conversations going or a lot of background noise

That was fun!

Well it's official Zyrtec zones me out, makes me tired and sleepy but not to the point of actually falling asleep while I am doing something. I am actually getting more done at work, weirdly I can stay focused better. But I stare off when I'm not doing something. But I could go to sleep if I got still and let myself. And I am looking forward to going to sleep when I get home and get packed for Youth Convention. Yay Youth Convention. I wish I were already packed though. *Sigh*

Allergies

To Allergies I say:
Why me?!?!?!?
I never had allergies until three or four years ago with the exception of a freak two years where I was actually allergic to the sun. That was very crazy for sure!
But I now deal with allergies. I am however thankful that Zyrtec is not over the counter!!!
I rushed to buy Zyrtec this morning, as my face was melting off. To which I totally freaked out the guy at the CVS Pharmacy counter, as I, an extremely Red-Nosed desperate individual, demanded the strongest Zyrtec he could sell me. Lol. It was quite humorous, he look at me like I was crazy. Well I felt crazy and desperate, I was losing my face here. However, I believe it is finally kicking in, and I still have eye balls and a nose. Phew that was a close one.
Allergies or No allergies - I welcome Spring with open arms.
I am ready for:
Warmth and sunshine
Trips to the bleachers to sun bathe at lunch
Trips to the lake
Kids Camp
Kids Crusades
Flip Flops
Pedicures
No jackets
No chill in the bones
Sunshine
Warmth

:)
Lord Thank You for Spring and Thank You for Zyrtec!
:)
Oh and I'd like to give a shout-out to Rachel - who told me how to give my blog the facelift it greatly needed!! Thanks Rach! Kiss Nattie's cheeks for me!

Isaiah 26-3-4
People with their minds set on You, You keep completely whole, steady on their feet, because they keep at it and don't quit. Depend on God and keep at it because in the Lord God you have a sure thing.

This is what You spoke to me last night Father and I am holding tight. When I feel myself losing my grip I will remember Your words, help me remember your words.
I love you Father and my heart and my life belong to you.

Crying Out

My Father I adore you more than anything my heart could wish for
I just want you...

This is true - but Father there are desires that I know you have placed in my heart - I feel them so strongly - at times I even lose myself in them - when I should be losing myself in You instead. Honestly, it's very hard not to. I have been fighting for years now, and I ask not to have to fight this any longer. I am asking You to fulfill Your promises to me. I am tired and it's hard to be patient and stay patient. Know that I will wait for You and for You to tell me when to move, but I am asking You to not make me wait anymore. Let this fight be over. I know there will be more and there will be other places to wait and fight. But I am asking You to bring this one to an end. But Father, You know best, so not my will but Yours be done. And in the meantime, help me, let it be easier for me. Give me what I need to be okay here. Content, peaceful, & patient. I thank You Father for who you are. I love you so much more than I ever thought I could love. Thank you for that. Thank you for loving me and knowing better than I what is best for me. Thank you for being in control of it all and that You have a plan for my life and it is a good plan. A plan to prosper me and not to harm me to give me a hope and a future. And I want that hope and that future to be in YOUR WILL and not mine. In Jesus precious name. Amen.

Friday :)

It's Friday!!

Yay!!
Not only that it's GOOD FRIDAY!
I love the opportunity to be reminded of what an Incredible Lord we have.
Jesus Died for You
Jesus Died for Me
He suffered beyond what we can ever really imagine.
Imagine being hated to the point of death, being beaten, and then your Father having to turn His face from you, even for an instant. I imagine that to be the hardest part for Jesus. That moment when God had to look away because He can not accept sin. But Jesus said not my will but your will be done. Wow What a Lord, what a Savior.
So today we all have a relationship with our Loving Father becuase of that choice Jesus made.


THANK YOU JESUS, SINCERELY FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. THANK YOU, MY PRECIOUS SAVIOR, FOR CHOOSING TO DIE FOR ME & FOR RAISING AGAIN TO BE MY LIVING LORD. LITERALLY MERE WORDS DO NOT BEGIN TO PRAISE YOU. BUT MY HEART PRAISES YOU, THE HEART YOU GAVE ME. I LIVE BECAUSE OF YOU, QUITE LITERALLY.



So today is Friday, the end of the week. A great week really. I am thankful for a great week. As busy season creeps up my goal is to keep Joy in the midst of stress. As stress will surely come, God can overcome in me though. And I am counting on that!



An exciting weekend ahead:
Saturday (tomorrow) a FULL day of ministry!! Woohoo!! I LOVE IT LOVE IT!
Puppet practice @ 9:00
Drama practice @ 11:00
Prayer @ 12:00
Workers meeting @ 12:30
Service starts @ 1:00
Clean up starts around 4:00
I am so excited!!
I can not wait to bless the kids of this community and the parents.
I am praying for both the parents, aunts, grandparents & the kids to really be touched, changed, & spoken to. I want them all to know God's Love & accept Him into their hearts and lives.



Sunday
Family Breakfast @ 8:00
Sunday School @ 9:30
Children's Church @ 10:30
Lunch & Movie
Family Dinner!!!!



I love my family all of them!



So far today has been great. Work load is managable, more than managable so that's nice. Lots of smiles and joy today. Connie(my boss) gave us all beautiful flowers:Aren't they beautiful!!! She is sweet & loves flowers & shares them with us often.

I prayed for my frind Jeannie to be healed, bless her heart she just coughs & coughs & coughs, the doctors havent been able to correct it yet. God put her on my heart this morning & I asked her if I could pray for her & she said yes. So after our morning meeting she came back to my corner & I covered her in prayer & I am believing for her complete healing & restoration! God is so good, she hasnt coughed hardly any since. In fact she has had to leave the customer service meeting several times & today she didnt cough once. God is good, SO GOOD!!! Thank you Jesus!

SO HAPPY FRIDAY TO YOU ALL!! HAVE A GREAT EASTER WEEKEND!!

Changes

So I was reading old posts today and it's so crazy how things change.
Some things made me very sad
Some made me very proud
I know I am different - in some ways good & in some ways bad
But I still love My Lord!

The loudest thing that stood out:
There are alot of relationships that are gone from my life now
How did that happen, why, was it me?

I think I might need to do some searching in that.
Some searching of me.

Food for thought I guess.

BLAH

BLAH

WHAT A BLAH DAY

IT IS ONE OF THOSE FEMALE DAYS IN EVERY WAY...WE REALLY ARE FICKLE CREATURES

* AUNT FLOW ARRIVED THIS MORNING

* I REACTED TO OLD STUFF I DIDNT REALIZE WAS OLD -TO WHICH I SAY - I REALIZE - & IM MOVING FORWARD

* ITS COLD AGAIN - IM DONE WITH THE COLD

* I STAYED UP TOO LATE LAST NIGHT - I KNEW BETTER - I REALLY DID

BLAH

WHAT A BLAH DAY

HOWEVER, GOD IS SO GOOD & HIS LOVE IS MORE AMAZING THAN THE WORD AMAZING CAN COVER - HE LOVES SO COMPLETELY & I AM THANKFUL - I AM BLESSED & LOVED & EVEN ON THIS BLAH DAY THERE IS GOOD

Some of my kids...

Sunday we had a blast at ALL day Drama practice with our fabulous KOR Drama Team...(except we were missing our little Zack)

We had lunch outside in the warm sunshine and then took pictures beneath the beautiful Bradford Pear tree before working hard on the Drama for this Saturday's Easter Egg Hunt...

This is our sweet Drama Team (minus Zack)

Drama Team Leaders (we love these kids)
Della & Lexie

Christopher

JoJo

Lexie

Abby (She looked down)

Miles

The three slackers (We didnt want to go in it was so pretty outside)

Come see my amazing kids do their Human Video on Saturday. It's going to be amazing I am so proud of them!!!

I love my kids!!

And so it FINALLY begins...

Busy season...

I love this time of year because the trips and action begins...

Tomorrow is our first trip to camp for this year with the kids...

It's JBQ Semi-Finals at Springville Camp - and its supposed to be warm!! I am so excited!!! We have not had JBQ in months so it's double exciting. Quizzing, games, service, food, and CAMP!!! And we get to stay in the lodges!! Woot woot, I love the lodges so much better than the cabins. Better bathroom, it's all about the bathroom and shower. It is going to be so much fun. I hope I get lots of great pictures to share with you guys too!! I so love this every year, I have a great time coaching and encouraging the kids, we always have the most incredible service on Friday nights, and then fun in the rooms before lights out!! Oh I love it!! I cant wait. And to top it off I get to sleep late tomorrow too!! Oh yea!!! Sleeping in before camp is always Wisdom!

Next up we have the Easter Egg hunt...
I can not wait I can not wait I can not wait!!! It is going to be so fun!!!

I have spring fever like crazy and I am so looking forward to heading home this afternoon and throwing open the shades and letting the sunlight into my little quaint apartment and getting busy washing and packing for camp. Oh my goodness I am so excited!!

Youth convention is also coming up - another short trip to camp!!!

I love love love love love love love love love love love this time of year and the opportunities to spend more personal time with the kids and youth. The ministry opportunities to touch other kids and youths lives. I have to tell you I know this is the very reason God created me. He created me to serve Him in ministry and I am so excited about that. I love it. I live for it. I love being Called to it!!

p.s. I know my last post was very strong, but I SO needed to feel that strongly about things.