Well Thanksgiving is over...this year was good...not great like last year but good...my mom and I hung out Wednesday evening and put up my new prelit Christmas tree...it looks great...and it has become Tater's new toy...oh joy...lol...then on Thanksgiving Day we went to my oldest brother's(William) in Leeds...we went expecting the worst...but it was really nice...all the drinkers showed up shortly before we left so it was really okay...mom and I played with Jacob and had a good time...and we ate and left basically...for my family that's really the best you can hope for...there was no talk of what we are thankful for or really no talk at all...which I find so extremely sad...I would love to sit down with my family and have things in common...and have positive things to talk about...but that is not the case...I am just thankful to have had an uneventful day...my brother Glenn was missing and we missed him...he was unable to make it becuase he is in jail right now...then mom and I went home she to her house me to mine...then on I went to visit with more family...went to Wiggins' and ate left over's and visited a bit...watched some TV and then back home for bed...Friday was nice...I slept in and left about 1:30 to go hang out with mom and Jacob...we had fun playing...I left late that evening and went back home...I spent the rest of the evening reading by the Christmas tree...a book I have had for who knows how long that I had never read...very unusual for me...then Saturday I slept in and then was able to just relax most of the day and read...it was nice...then I went to Wiggins and we decorate the Christmas tree and listened to hilarious Christmas music...and then we had egg nog and toasted to our family...tradition...I love tradition...and Neesie and Dad bought me ornaments for the three years I have been in the family and that was so awesome and sweet and I loved the ornaments...one of them said LOVE on it and that is what Neesie calls me it is my nickname...it was great...then we watched movies allllll night...and for me it literally was all night...and we decided that Neesie no longer is allowed to pick out movies...lol...good family times...but we watched Stealth and it was awesome...but no good Christmas movies...sniff sniff...but it's ok there is still time to watch some good ones...ok so let me just say that the following two movies are terrible...Millions and The 12 Dogs of Christmas...yeah I had never heard of them either...there's a reason for that...lol...sorry Neesie your movie picking priveledges have been permantely revoked...lol...Sunday was good...play practice went better I only chopped up one song bad...and even it was a little better...I am so nervous about the play I can't wait for it to be over...I know the kids are going to do great it is me I am worried about...uuuuggghhhh...tightness in the stomach...lol...Sunday afternoon I walked on the treadmill about 10 mins...but hey that's better than nothing...ate yummy smoked turkey and leftovers...then napped while everyone watched Bewitched...which is a great movie and I love it...then back to play practice...which went good and was over in time for me to slip into the sanctuary for the ending of the GAS night youth service...I was able to worship and then pray over someone very precious...it was great...then on to home where I finished my book and crashed...to wake up to crazy Tater biting my face this morning...he drove me crazy...bless his sweet little heart...I sure do love my kitty...this week is going to be crazy busy...working on decorations for the play...and Tuesday night is prayer night...yes!!!...I can not wait...and Saturday is dress rehearsal...and a Christmas party...and Sunday is the play...and I know the kids are going to do fabulous!!!...well that has been my holiday in detail...ha ha...looking forward to getting my Christmas shopping done so I can breathe easy...well off I go back to work...Happy Holidays everyone...hope your Thanksgiving was wonderful and reminded you of all you have to be Thankful for...I am Thankful for new life and that Jesus is my new life!!! Keep up the good fight...it is worth it!!! I love you all so very much!!

So I feel stronger today than I have in a long time...it's because I have spent three nights deep in God's Word and in prayer for myself and others...it is so amazing what diving in can do...I have felt so weak, so lost, so tired, so aimless, lately...I hate it so much...I miss so much the place I was in with God...my rug was ripped out from under me or more likely I stepped off the edge of it...and I plumetted way way down...not a fun place to be...but last night while journaling and seeking I was refilled with His strength and some determination...I am thankful...very thankful...I need Him so much...so much...I just kept/keep seeking...kept/keep fighting...its all I know to do...I kept/keep repeating the things I know to be true no matter if I believed them at the time...it's all I could do...I knew I didnt want to stay where I was...I clawed my way back up...or rather I am clawing my way back up...Father help me...when I get tired lift me up...when I am weak make me strong...when I am disobediant, correct me...when I am lost in the dark, light my path and give me clarity...I love you with all my heart...and I do not want to live even one day without you...help me find my way back completely! Oh and War Eagle!!!

Hi from me today!

Wow it has been a while since I have posted...I really was in a place where I had no idea what to say...and actually I didnt feel much like writing...which is really odd for me cause I love to write...anyway...things have been different lately...I have definately been struggling...I am still struggling...but God is here with me...ALWAYS...and that is so comforting to me...I need Him so much...and He never lets me down...I have taken a break from teaching on Wednesday nights...there is just so much I am struggling with right now and with play practice and no Sunday night services in December...Wednesday nights will be the only nights I'll get a service...and my heart has so not been there on Wednesday nights for a while...and I know those girls deserve more than what I was giving...in fact I dont think I had given much for a while...more that I was taking with the girls...anyway...but we havent had a service since I came out of Stars...so I have high hopes for this Wednesday...it did feel good to not have that commitment last Wednesday...I was thankful...anyway I have also started Physical Therapy for my neck, back, and hips...I have high hopes for this as well...I really need this to be a permanent fix to my problems...today however I have taken none of the meds(muscle relaxers or pain) I really do not like being dependant on meds like that...not at all...so far today I am okay...there is pain but it is not unbearable...so I am just going to not take the meds...work is the same...still trucking along in invoicing and I have actually had more time for MIS lately so that has been good...I enjoy MIS alot sometimes...but in any case I am here biding my time before I move on to Ministry...but I am doing well here...much better actually...I am getting things done and that is good...I am working hard...well anyway I just wanted to post a quick update...God is good...All the time...All the time...God is good!!!!

Here are pics of me and Tater my kitty!!!

Today I am hanging by a rope instead of just a thread! But I know even that could change in a breath depending on me. I am in a rather large struggle. Please pray that God would give me STRENGTH and WISDOM and that I would accept both and take advantage of them. Pray that I will stay honest and open and allow myself to be held accountable. Pray. Pray. Pray. Thanks!

Wahoo...just got back from walking with the ladies at lunch...we walked hard and I feel great...I am ready to do it again tomorrow...lets go...I want to be in shape and loose weight...I really feel great...I have lots of energy right now...well still reading in Job...I am loving it...it is good to know that he is so brutally honest with God...it is REFRESHING to me...and I'm loving that his friends are there and they are not allowing him to slip too far into self pity...they are fussing back and forth but they are there for him and trying to turn his eyes back to God...we'll see how it all turns out though...I know I have read this book before but I dont really remember it so its like all new to me...I like it...I like it alot...I like knowing there is someone who will show me the ugly when I cant see it and show me when I am wrong or going in the wrong direction...I always pray that I will be receptive to that...well anyway...I had better put all this energy to good use and get some work knocked out...lata!!

Being Stirred
God's Word stirs me...I've just fininshed reading Esther and started reading Job...and today I realized how much God's Word stirs me...makes me think and look at myself to see if I am in check with the things I need to be doing and correcting...both Esther and Job are pretty amazing examples to us...Esther risked her on life to save her people...little did she know the plan God had in store for her...through reading Esther I noticed all the things God put in place to save his people...not all easy things for Esther either...but necessary to get her to the place God needed her to save the people...it is just incredible to see...I see God's hand in my own life like that as well...not that I'll be queen and save an entire people..but God has had a hand in my whole life to bring me to where I am today and were I will be in the future...it is amazing...and Job...wow...I would only hope to be able to stand and worship and praise God like he does as things are taken away from him...he simply trusts not matter what...I have huge doubts in myself there...I mean if my entire family and fortune were taken away from me in one day...would I immediately turn and praise God...I pray I would...Job was incredibly faithful...incredibly sold out...incredibly willing to give it all back to God...sometimes I am not even willing to give God my day...I have only begun reading Job today...I have read it before but this time it I am looking within me to see if I have those same qualities...Christlike qualities...Christ was faithful even to death...would I be that faithful...I pray so...but again have some major doubts...not that I am asking to be tested at all...lol...just looking within to see how strong my faith is and allowing Job to encourage me there and learning from him...I love God's word...it stirs me!! Hope you'll let it stir you today!!!

Hola...ok well I went back on what I said...I got another cat...so far it has already been much better than the last time...my new kitty is a boy...he has a bobbed tail...he is orange...and his name is Tater...he is the sweetest and funniest kitty ever...I love him...I have had him since Tuesday afternoon...so already I've had him longer than the last one by a couple hours...ha...well this week has been good...I have been reading in the book of Esther...there are several things that stood out to me...first was that Esther was willing to give up her life for her people...the second was that the King couldnt sleep so he had the journals read to him...that was so totally God that he couldnt sleep and because of that he found out about Mordecai...and it was interesting that Haman did not get away with the evil he was planning...but it was turned back on him...and it was so God that turned it back...it was just cool to read the story and see how God was looking out and putting little things in place just in time to stop the evil from happening...so cool...you just never know when those little things are things that God has put there to keep you safe and protect you...wow...what a cool story...of God's faithfullness to us...and an encouraging story of how we can be used...like Mordecai told Esther in chapter 4 the end of verse 14 from the Message Bible..."Who knows? Maybe you were made queen for such a time as this." Who knows maybe we are where we are for such a time as this...wow...it would do me good at work to keep that in mind...really good...wow...what a revelation all of a sudden...thanks you Father...wow...you know God is so good...and my most favorite thing is to be used by Him...well bon voyage for now...got a wonderful weekend planned...Jen and Jason are coming over tonight...Mom is coming over tomorrow morning with Jacob my little fatboy...and Saturday night I'm headed to hang with my other family and Sunday is pastor appreciation YES...and Sunday night we are going to the movies as a family...I hope we get to see Flightplan...have a good one...lata gata!!!

Hi...Happy Tuesday...guess I'd better catch up on the weekend...I worked until 7:00pm Friday night...it was the last shipping day of the month and trucks were late...but I didnt have anything to do since Jen had company coming over so it didn't bother me at all to have to work that late...and Saturday I finally got to clean my apartment...wow...I am ever so thankful...I even reorganized my kitchen cabinets...aaahhhhhh....I feel soooo much better...my house is spotless...well except my guest bedroom...it needs some work...and I am quickly getting behind on laundry...but my house is clean...its clean its clean its clean...phew...it makes me wanna bake...how crazy is that...lol...I walked into my clean kitchen the other night and though...oh I really want to bake something...lol...ha...anyway then Saturday night Neesie and I played bejeweled forever...it was so much fun...Sunday we started the Christmas play in children's church and then went to Guntersville for a kids crusade...I could only go Sunday night because of work...but that's okay...I made my peace with it...surprisingly...it was difficult but I knew that God worked it out that way for a reason...because last night was the Women's Meeting and Miss Darlene asked me to share my testimony...I did and it went well I think...all I know is that I would share it again and again if it touches and changes lives...it was hard because that was the first time I had shared it in front of a big group like that(30)...but I am glad I did it and I would do it again in a heart beat...I mean really if what I went through can help give someone else hope and faith and help them to better understand how much God loves us...then I'll tell it everyday...it makes every single thing I went through worth it...every part of it...I do not regret anything...I would not change anything...I am only thankful God uses me and my life to touch others in such a way...I am so thankful to all of those who were able to be there last night...I was so affraid that I would have no safe friends there...and those that came touched my heart so very much I dont even have words to express...I needed that support and really I cant even express how much it meant...anyway...then we got to decorate cakes...that was so fun...and I loved watching everyone work and decorate their cake...Darlene really out did herself...it was alot of fun...you know I just have to say how incredible God is...I was really blessed by sharing my testimony last night...I know that He was in control and that He brought out the things that needed to be said...I couldnt even begin to tell all that He has done for me....it would take months years maybe...He has done so much...I could ask for none better than Him!!!

It has been a tumultuous week...kind of like a roller coaster for me...but the most awesome thing about it is that God taught me things through it and He never left my side...and I never left His...I am thankful that the week is coming to an end and hopeful that my plans for tonight and tomorrow will not get messed up...I just have to share the things that God is to me...the things He has been for me this week...My Father when I needed warms arms around me...My Comforter when I cried...My Peace when I was anxious...My Rock when all else around me seemed to be falling down...My Joy in the middle of my circumstances...Faithful when I was short of faithful to Him...My Best Friend when I cried out to Him He listened and He heard...My Victory over the battles I fought...My All in All...and that is the kind of Father/God He desires to always be to each of us...it is just a matter of us allowing Him to be those things...and that is probably the biggest miracle of all...I allowed Him to be those things...those places were the first places I turned...His Word, prayer, and I simply listened...I cried out to him even with the smallest of requests...and He answered...with stickers none the less...you see one day I just asked for a good day for joy...and all day He provided little blessings...all day...and shimmer stickers was one of the blessings...He's cool like that...anyway I just wanted to share that...You know God has done so much work in me...so much...I am to tell my testimony at our women's meeting Monday night...and for me to even attempt to tell them all that God has done for me it would take days...and I would still be leaving things out...I can not even begin to go there...He is just that awesome...and I am so thankful that He is working in me and changing me and teaching me and loving me and that He chose me...He chose you too...will you allow Him to do in you what He desires to...will you allow Him to bless you as he desires too...will you allow Him to use you as He desires to...the only thing you have to do is allow Him to do it...the places He has called me I know I can not do on my own...I know I am not equipt to do...but He is...He is the Lord of Lords...and all I have to do is simply allow Him to do...will you do the same????

Whoa the things that are going through me right now...a multitude of things...most I cant and wont put words to...so moving on...one of the things I have heard from God this week has to do with music...well namely one of my favorite country bands...Rascal Flatts...Jen let me borrow her new CD...oh my goodness...I love it...I love their music the way they sound everything...but here's the kicker...I listened to it all day Monday...and by the time I got home I was super bummed...and I was thinking...when am I going to fall in love and get married...blah blah blah...the thing is...it took my mind off God and put me in a mode where it was hard to focus on God and wait patiently for the things He has promised me...I dont need to be sitting around thinking oh poor pitiful me that hasnt happened to me yet or anything like that...God has spoken to me about music before...my Kelly Clarkson CD...love her...love her voice...love her music...but...it gives a different view of love than God wants me to have...so I dont listen to that one either...God hasnt said to me dont listen to secular music yet...but there are certain things he speaks to me about individual songs or groups and such...which could be His way of slowly weeding it all out...so anyway in my conversation with God Monday night during my journaling/devotion time...we got me back on track again...so that was a good thing...a really good thing...lol...because I DO want to wait patiently for the things God has for me and not jump the gun for the things I want...what I want is not good enough...God knows whats best...well anyway...I so feel like for the past couple of days I havent been explaining things well...like my words are not coming out right...I hope that is not the case here...I am so frustrated right now though...blah...anyway...God is teaching me so much...I just wish I could get a handle on it all...it seems a bit overwhelming at this moment...but I know this moment will pass...so I'm pressing on...so I'm going to go and keep pressing on...lata!

Fall Fever!!!!

Happy Fall Yall!!!!

I can not wait for the weather to change and cool off...and the leaves to changes colors...what photo opportunities...lol...and with my new borrowed toy...a SLR 35mm camera...and the dreams of a brand new one soon...I can't wait...I love warm clothes...scarves...gloves...jackets...coats...sweaters...love the crisp air...love it all...I'm tellin ya Fall Fever has officially set in...ok moving on from that...real quick cause I have a deadline to meet...this week has been pretty good so far...the weekend was great...JBQ was awesome...it was the best day...and I coached the achiever team and had the best time...I loved that time encouraging the kids...loved it...it was a great day...Sunday was great too...we sang and sang...cause this weekend we start the Christmas play...and I cant wait to see what it is this year...and I am only doing a short BGMC Service...and then we are starting the play...I had some really good devotion time last night...God spoke to me out of Psalms...and it was just what I am doing...so God was just encouraging me to keep it up...it was great...I havent been sleeping too great so pray for me there...well I gotta go...gotta get these invoices out by 11:00am...lata!

I am so glad today is Friday...another busy but wonderful weekend ahead...tonight going to my brother's football game...tomorrow our first Junior Bible Quiz match...wahoo I am so excited...then to my familys to chill...and Sunday off to church I go...and for lunch we are having roast...by request of me...yum...I am excited...I so can not wait for the weather to cool down...man I have fall fever like no body's business...I cant wait to start wearing warmer clothes...especially since I am gaining tons of weight again...blah...oh yeah Heather just sent me pics from Kentucky...wahoo...here they are...have a great weekend...I love Jesus...

This is our crew as the Incredibles...Scotty is the dad...Haley is the daughter...Marcie is the mom...I am the fast little boy...and Katie is the baby...and Jason and PT just think they are strong but I think Kelsie and Kayla can take 'em!!!
This is the kids choir the last night...look at all the kids...wahoo...it was a great year!!!

Wow last night was awesome...about a dozen teenagers asked Jesus into their heart...how awesome it that...and it was so awesome to see their friends stand behind them and encourage them...wow...I just want to cry...it was incredible...I went down to the front to pray...not because I knew anyone but because I was so happy and excited and I wanted to support their courage...man...how awesome...and I loved the praise and worship...loved it loved it loved it...and after church I went and hung out with my family...and for the first time in FOREVER...we all just hung out and chatted...all of us...Neesie, Dad, Me, Jared and Daniel...it was an awesome family moment...and we got a picutre of us lounging on the couch for our scrapbook...wahoo...tonight is my clean the house night...and I am actually excited...I am so ready to get my house clean again...and I want to pull out any Fall stuff I have like my door hanger...cause guess what...TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY OF AUTUMN...and we all know what that means...I LOVE FALL...lol...love it love it love it...I am really going to have to make more time at home to keep myhouse clean and enjoy it...yep yep...work is going good today...getting stuff done and that is always nice...I cannot wait till it cools down outside so I can go out at lunch and enjoy the FALL weather...man I can not wait...DID I MENTION I LOVE AUTUMN...lol...okay okay...I'll stop that now...anyway...tomorrow night is another Chelsea football game...I want Daniel to get to play...I like football...and I love being there to support my brother...and Saturday is Bible Quiz...I am so excited about Bible Quiz...I can not wait for Saturday...yehaw...I cant wait cant wait cant wait...well I had better get back to work...I am leaving you with a great picture of Danielle and Me taken last Saturday night at the Columbiana Youth Rally...I love black and white pictures!!!

I learned something about myself just today...in the middle of a conversation with Neesie...my eyes were opened to an insecurity I have...I didn't realize I had it until it came out of my mouth in that conversation...dont you love when that happens...well it kinds freaks me out...its like I say something and then I'm like wow...yeah that is it...and until I said it I had no idea...so that was pretty awesome...maybe now I can work on that insecurity and not be insecure there...we shall see...lots to work on these days...I keep myself busy like that...ha...well God and me...He is so faithful and allows me to see things just as I need to...He is such a great Father...wow...ok so today has been pretty good...getting my stuff done...and that feels great...and tonight is church...but before I am having dinner with Becky and Adam...which I am super excited about because today is her birthday and I have been really needing and wanting to spend some time with her...but I am not very good at managing my time...in fact I stink at it pretty badly...one of the things I am working on...lots to work on...but hey I am never bored...lol...well I guess I dont have much more to say...See ya on the flip side...uumm...meaning...lata!!

Good afternoon...well today is considerably better workwise than yesterday...I have managed to get my mind off having to have a reason for being here...I am simply here because that is where God has me at the moment...who am I to complain...is there not worse places I could be...uummm...yeah...not to mention...they are pretty good to me here...aside from the occasional bad day or someone being ugly or the fact that it is not ministry...this is a great job...and my bosses are wonderful...why am I complaing...really the only reason I was complaining is because it is not ministry...otherwise I dont have a problem being here...lol...anyway I am better today...even jovial...ha...do you like my word...I have been able to stand in faith so strong last night and today...and the situation that came about is a rough one...but I have so much faith and peace and calmness...it is still odd to me the calmness that comes upon me in times of crisis...but it is God and it is great when He floods me with that peace...and I am thankful for it and the faith that I have...I know God is going to reveal Himself in this situation...I know it without doubt...and I hope it all comes about quickly...I am look forward to watching Him work in lives...He really is an incredible God...He really is more than the human mind can fathom...His goodness towards us makes absolutely no sense to us...but the beauty of it is that it doesnt have to make sense...it just is...and the fact that we do not understand it doesnt change the fact that it there abundantly...that is pretty cool...cause if the world stopped because I didnt understand it then hey...this would be one still earth...lol...there are so many things that I do not understand...but I know that I do not have to understand them in order to have the faith that God has given me...otherwise I wouldnt have that faith right now...I know I know...I am not making much sense...these are just things that I am realizing as I am typing...anyway...I am thankful that the day has improved over yesterday...last night I even got out and walked about 8 laps on the track...and I am going to do that again tonight...I am gradually moving back up in to my bigger clothes...uuuggghhh...so not fun...so I am definately wanting to walk again as much as I can force myself to...I just want to not have a weight problem...but since that is not the case...I need to really be motivate to work hard on it...I need to really stay on top of the whole exercise thing...I havent gotten there yet...but maybe I will...well I had better go and run downstairs to get tickets...let my afternoon begin...bye for now!

Hi...back at work again today...oh the joys...right?...NO...I am so struggling here...but it is always like that when I come back off a ministry trip...I dont see the importance of patio furniture in the grand scheme of things...I see the importance of people...but I dont get much time with the people...I have to stay busy busy...but you know I need to stop belly aching and just be content...I am fine doing the work today...but I am not content...thats alright though...well the weekend was good...Homecoming gameas fun Friday night...Chelsea won...yeah for them...then Neesie and I layed on my bed and watched a movie on the laptop...it was fun...Saturday we had breakfast and I mowed with Dad...let me just tell you...I had the best time mowing...I really do love to mow...it was fun...then we had an awesome lunch that Neesie made...it was yummy...then Neesie and I started playing dominoes then I had to get ready for the Youth Rally...the rally was good...no many came...but it was still good...then Danielle and I went and got some Taco Bell and went back to the apt and ate the I took her home...it was great to get to spend some time with her...I have seen her since before I left for KY...it was really awesome...then I went home to start breakfast casseroles for Sunday morning...Sunday was really good...I made a Maple Pancake Bake for Sunday school...children's church was good...I was stretched again...I had to talk to a puppet...I am not great at it but I did okay...at least I remember to look at the puppet this time instead of the puppeteer..lol...so that was a stretch...we did the new gorilla song we learned in KY and JR KOR kids came in for the first part of the service...I think they had a great time...after church Neesie and I worked on our scrap book after lunch which is looking great if I do say so myself...then on to drama practice...that went really well...Marcie had to come in a get us when service started cause we were still practicing...it was GAS night...which means the youth do service...it was great...really great...I love to hear the youth praise team they are awesome...I love to hear Carrie and Boo sing and loved that at the end Kara and Katie sang and led worship...they both love to sing so much and sing wonderfully...it was awesome...and I love to hear Boo preach...he is awesome and is anointed...and fun...I really look forward to GAS nights...after church I went and hung out with the Jones'...we watched this really cool hunting talk show...I liked it...but I am such a girl...everytime someone would shoot something I'd go awww...duh...that is what hunting is about Tabbie...but still it is hard to see something get shot and not react...God made women like that...I shall not deny my girly side...lol...it made me a little sad...though I am not against hunting...I like to eat deer meat(now that I am used to it)...anyway then I showed Haley and PT Katie Harris' Xanga site and showed them how to get on it...that was fun...and PT and I decided to do a JBQ Xanga site...I created it eariler...I am super excited about it...and this weekend is our first JBQ match...I am so excited...I cant wait...I love bible quiz...both JR and SR...I love it...and this weekend I am going to get a picture of our bible quiz teams for the Xanga site...wahoo...I really am excited about that...lol...well that is an update on my weekend...today has been good...I am just struggling with a few things...mainly work...but it is nothing major...I know it will pass...but let me just say I cant wait for the day I get to quit my secular job and focus on family and ministry...I cant wait...I lived my dream last week...and I didnt want to come back from it...every kids crusade is like that...especially the ones where I dont have to work during the day...lol...that is what make Kentucky so great for me...I get time off of work so I can focuse my mind totally on ministry and the people around me...it is wonderful...ok Jen is gone to visit her parents this week...I'll miss her and IMing her...it is sad not seeing that little thing flash at the bottom...I hope she is having a great time though...and Memphis...I have never been there but i like Tennessee...I want to go to Gatlinburg this fall...even only to drive up to see the beauty and drive back home...I need to find me someone who is game to do that...hint hint Becky...my only friend that doesnt think that is stupid and will spend a whole day with me in a car...speaking of this week is Becky's birthday...she is getting old...lol...not...I cant wait to go get her something...I love birthdays...it is a great time to say...I love you and am thankful for you...I really dont spend as much time as I should with her...so I am slightly clueless as to what to get her for her birthday...what she needs, wants, likes, etc...makes me disappointed in myself for not spending more time with her...so Becky if you read this...I love you and I am sorry I dont come see you more...bad me...I hope that I can come up with something you will love for your birthday though...I want you to know I love you and appreciate you...okay well...that is all for now...until next time...I love you all so very very much...I'll be here seeking God and His will and His wisdom...God is Good all the time...all the time God is Good!!!

Not a single comment while I was gone...makes me sad...quick update...Kentucky was awesome...I was not ready to come back...to business and work...seriously it was perfect...we slept in and relaxed all day...worked hard from 5-9...came home ate and visited...then to bed...it was just amazing...I loved it...I was stretched during services...danced in the gorillas and a character...but I didnt fret too much and just did it...it was great...the responses were great...it was just incredible...I am so thankful I got to go again this year...I look forward to next year...and hope I get to go then too...anyway that is my update...lata!

Ok my friends...the week is coming to an end...my attitude is slightly better...I have been able to get done the things that were detremental for my leaving tomorrow morning for Kentucky...I managed to get my attitude under control this morning when a co-worker smarted off about the amount of time I take off...I said nothing and walked out...I wanted to tell her that though it was none of her business...I have been here five years and get 3 weeks vacation...I used 5 days for camp...4 days for cruise...and am using 4 days for Kentucky...not to mention the extended hours I have been working since getting back from camp in June or the fact that I'll be working some while in Kentucky...I managed thus far to say none of those things...but to relenquish my attitute toward her and my small fear that she is going to ruffle feathers over it, to God...I know that it is because of Him that I am able and allowed to do all the wonderful things I get to do...and if it is His will that I am able to continue to do these things then there is nothing that the little busybody here can say to change that...this coworker has always driven me crazy...but I asked God today to help me to see her as He sees her...and it helped some...I still need to work on that and I asked for grace for her and it helped too...I still need to work there as well...but I am trying and seeing these things as they happen now where as before I never saw them until much later after I had alread sinned greatly toward the other person...so I have grown...but I want to grow more...so today is better than the others...I came in task oriented and did not even turn my computer on until I absolutely had to...and I got things done...hhhmmm...I need to remember that...I did manage to get packed last night...and the guys in my life would be extremely proud of me...I pack for a week in ONE suitcase...and it is not even my biggest suitcase...so go me...now the challenge will be to get all my stuff back in that one suitcase at the end of the week...then and only then can I be considered a true "manly" packer...ha...so you guys if you read this...you need to brag appropriately...lol...so I got packed last night...then sat on my bed and worked on invoices and watched TV...that is the longest amount of time I have spent in front of the TV in a good long while...I watched two episodes of Scrubs...I usually dont watch that one but I knew Jay Leno and Conan would come on that channel later and I didnt want to have to get up and mess up all my work to change the channel...crazy I know...anyway...2 episodes of scrubs...part of an episode of ER(was on the phone through some of it)...then guess what...the news came on...so I HAD to get up and change the channel cause I hate watching the news...I read bits and pieces online but I cant sit and watch all that sad stuff and hear it over and over in the same hour...so I watched two episodes of Andy Griffith...man what a show...I really love it...you dont have to worry about hearing things you shouldn't be listening to or seeing things you shouldn't be watching...and it teaches good morals...by that time I was finally done with my invoices and extremely exhausted and sleepy so I cleaned it all up...and decided NOT to move on to my second stack of invoices...and went to bed...phew what and evening huh...I did however, like watching TV while I worked...matching invoices is not a job you have to think a whole lot about...so it made it pass quicker...it is very monotonous and boring but hey somebody's gotta do it...anyway that was my evening...I got up this morning and got ready for work...finished packing the things I couldnt pack last night and a few others I forgot...like my coloring book and crayons...that would have been terrible to forget those...phew...it was a close one...then I loaded down my car and headed to work...with a million and one things on my brain to get done...but here I sit at 11:41 with most all of it done...THANK YOU JESUS...YOU ARE THE MAN...now the biggest thing I need to get done is some serious praying...I have slacked on my devotion time the past couple days...got lost in the stress...and I wonder why I wasnt handling it very well...humans...you'd think we'd learn...but no we are idiots...well at least I am...but anyway...I need to find some time and get in my prayer journal and go to town on some things...I have read a couple chapters in Jeremiah today...the Word is so refreshing...even in Jeremiah...I just love God's Word...anyway so I am getting things done and the more I get done the better I feel...ok so Kentucky...we leave tomorrow morning at 7:00AM...yikes...can we say coffee please...lol...I am ready...ready to dive into ministry for 4 days...ready to work, play, hang out, eat, pray, worship, minister, pray, ready ready ready...I'll be doing a character...which is taking me OUT OF MY COMFORT ZONE...but that is okay...I am ready...I am doing Kara's character and she does such a good job...I dont think I'll even come close to doing as good a job as she does...but at least I have something great to imitate!!!...that is very helpful for me...very...I hope it goes well...I cant wait to be there and see all the people and get started...ok well I had better get on to lunch...I may or may not update while in Kentucky...I dont want to spend alot of time one the computer while I am there...I want to enjoy the people I am with and nap time...lol...so I'll holla when I get back...pray for us...we want to see kids lives changed, healed, and we want them to know how much God loves them...love you guys...I will miss you all!!!!